prayer

Do you think God exists?
Do you think he forgives the things you didn’t mean, and loves you when you don’t believe in anything?

I asked for a sign today because I do need something to believe
Today, desperately, lately.
From what I’ve heard He doesn’t turn you away, even after a long absence.
Much more gracious than humans, I think, though we have our moments.

Well, God’s got a good sense of humor, because immediately after asking, I saw a sign for ADT
The, uh, 24/7 home security.

Which is unfortunately hilarious, because (please pardon my ferocity)—
When’s the last time I felt safe?
When’s the last time I trusted?
When’s the last time I gave this haunted house of a body a break?

What’s the cure for the inability to receive love without questioning?
How far would I go to push people away?
To lock myself in a condemnable home
Lord I beg to be seen, and to be not afraid.

(bless you Alok Menon, and their “Art is How I Got Free”)